HAPPINESS

• more tees on neutral colors (plain and kind of loose, soft fabric)
• a suggested hair treatment
• longer hair
• a perfect haircut and footspa
• more acid washed-like clothes
• nude or metallic colored oxford shoes or pumps
• mirror nail polish and more cracking nail polish
• peachy colored lipgloss
• new eyeliner
• a new nude lipstickkk omggg spaz*
• and probably a new red lipstick too
• fake foxtail keychain:(
• connector rings <3
• a tattoo (which i really cannot get now)
• new piercing (maybe with lorraine)
• a freaking dslr
• a hat
• more dvds to watch
• more time with my significant other.. babe!
• more new songs
• more sleepovers with kristine and lorraine
• beach!!!!!
• and a beach body.. haha
• feathery stuffs
• more vintage stuffs
• more nude/ neutral colored things!
• more ideas and inspiration for my sketchpad
• more art materials
• and more things to put on my blog! end of spazzing.. ciao!

when my brother switched the channel, my lola asked him to put it on the robots(referring to transformers). with confused faces we thought it was weird. cause typically she’d watch tv dramas. she told us she liked it and we don’t know why she would. she’s a little OC, but sweet and generous. on the other note, i suddenly thought of mozart’s grandma (mother’s side). she likes to watch wrestling and boxing matches which i thought was cute.:) moz told me one time she said i left my scent and that she likes it. :’) i really like it when she smiles like she’s surprised every time i make mano (omooo is there even an english term for that?) when i visit. she’s really nice too. mozart told me she’s crushing on aljur abrenica.:)) how adorable.:D oh and i also remembered his other lola(father’s side)! i met her on his ate’s birthday. i was a bit of surprised when she sat beside me. then the next thing i knew.. we were talking! i was so shy but i kind of managed to open up some things to her. she told me that one of her apo’s is also taking up tourism in feu. she also told me about his husband, how often she visit bataan, about nueva ecija, her apo’s.. my lola (my mother’s side) also came up to my mind. she’s also sweet and caring. she’s always smiling and generous. grandparents are really cute, sweet and loving. makes me miss having them around. <3

starting today, i promise i would update this every now and then:D

MOZART (by chame)

you are the first breath i take in the morning,

the last drop as soon as the sky stops crying.

and when the stars gather up at night,

you are the one that never leaves my sight.

you are my reality and dream, baby,

as Russel Brand is to Katy Perry.

you make my blood rush to my face,

and my heart beat in unusual ways.

but i could only do so much, cause i’m not that good,

but i swear on these lovely rings, i would if i could.

i will always miss your smiling eyes and your hands that fit,

and everything in the world that is attached to it.

i cant afford to lose you ever again,

like how trees and leaves in autumn can.

and if it’s the price i have to pay,

i would rather sell my heart on eBay.

madilim. unti-unting lumiliwanag ang paningin. malabo. sige pa. dilat pa. nakita mo yung sarili mong mga paa pag tingin mo sa baba. nakita mo rin yung kanya. ang sofa na may kulay abong may pulang rosas na naisip mo eh bagay sa pangalan ng nanay nnya. yung sinag ng araw mula sa bintana. konti lang ang naiilawan pero sapat na para maaninag mo yung mukha nyang konti na lang ang pagitan sayo. nakapikit sya. hindi mo alam kung natutulog o nagpapahinga lang. ang sarap pagmasdan. tumigil ang oras ng ilang segundo. minuto. oras. pilikmata. kilay. maamong mukha. malayo sa mukhang nakikita mo kapag niloloko ka nya at nagmamake-face sya. nakakatawa. tuloy tayo.. nakayakap sya sayo. yakap mo rin sya. na para bang ayaw mo syang mahawakan ng kahit ano o sino. “mahaba pa ang oras” ang sabi mo sa sarili mo. nakapikit pa rin sya. nakangiti ka pa rin. sa tuwing didilat sya eh titingin ka sa ibang direksyon. pero hindi mo mapipigil yung ngiti mo. tapos maririning mo yung maliit nyang tawa. saka ka nya i-kikiss sa pisngi. ngingiti ka na lang. parang walang epekto. pero ang totoo, nalulusaw ka na pala. umayos ka ng pwesto. hinayaan mo syang humiga sa braso at balikat mo na nakayakap sa kanya. sinusuklay mo ng kamay mo yung buhok nya. ang sarap sa pakiramdam. nararamdaman mo sa leeg mo yung hininga nya. sasabog na ata yung puso mo. hinalikan mo sya sa pisngi. dumilat sya na parang bagong umaga na. ngumiti sya saka hinalikan ka nya. alam nyong masaya kayo. kung pwedeng ganun na lang habang buhay. hindi mo sya kayang ipagpalit sa kahit sino. kahit sinong “mas”. kung meron man. kung pwede lang nairerecord sa video yung eksenang yun. gusto mong balikbalikan. hinding hindi mo malilimutan. para kang binigyan ng isang buong garden kahit damong ligaw lang ang hinihingi mo. konting patak na lang, makakalipad ka na sa saya. alam mong ikaw yung huli nyang nakita bago sya matulog, at yung una sa pagdilat ng mata nya. pumikit ka na rin. gusto mong maranasan matulog ng yakap-yakap ka nya. kaso hindi ka hinayaang matulog ng isip mo. masyado kang masaya para matulog. sinulit mo na lang yung bawat hininga nya sa leeg mo. yung bawat galaw ng paa nya. yung bawat higpit ng yakap nya. yung bawat tibok ng puso nya. yung bawat ngiti. bawat pagpikit na parang nagsasabing huwag kang aalis sa tabi nya. masayang masaya ka. nalimutan mo lahat, maliban sa kanya.

i can see the beauty in everything because of you. the world is beautiful. it may be unfair sometimes, but we just have to reflect on it to have a prettier view. kung may gumawa ng masama sayo, isipin mo na lang, baka may pinapagdaanan lang syang worse sa napagdaanan mo. baka gusto nya lang tulungan yung sarili nyang makaahon. baka kapag sinisiraan o sinasaktan ka nila eh gumaganda ang pakiramdam nila. i know. i’ve experienced both sides. nasaktan na ko. nakasakit na ko. i also learned that if you wait for the right moment, if you wait for things to happen, if you don’t rush in, you’ll get something that’s even better. do everything in the right way. don’t step on someone’s feelings. wag kang gaganti. wag kang makikipagbatuhan. try to understand people kahit ignorante sila. kahit utak kanal sila - makitid na, madumi pa - and you’ll get some rewards in return. right now i’m so happy. i’m contented. with my family, friends, and my baby. thanks to God. i can’t ask for more. sana walang magbago. sana kung may dadating na problema makayanan naming lahat ng magkasama. sana matauhan lahat ng tao. at marealize kung gaano kaganda ang buhay. im not saying this because im happy, but because im enlightened. sana makapagpatawad, not only because i need forgiveness or peace of mind but because we can’t be truly happy without it.

everything is beautiful. believe.

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at peoples flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality.sexy. Affectionate.Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic.Consoling, friendly and solves peoples problems. Brave and fearless.Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates oneself and others.Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about peoples feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends .

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out peoples mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesnt pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciates praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical